Keeping Up

For some reason lately I have just been feeling so discouraged when it comes to writing. I don't know what it is, but I haven't felt like I have had any good ideas or anything useful or fun to say. However, while I was sitting here trying to come up with something today a thought struck me. Why do I have to write to impress other people? Shouldn't I be writing just for myself? Isn't that the whole reason I started this little blog? I have been so worried about followers and gaining new ones and keeping old ones that I have lost track of why I really started this blog. I have found myself recently wishing that I had a BBFF and wondering how all of these amazing women have made so many wonderful friendships. And then I remembered that they are probably just writing for themselves and about what they think is important or fun.

I am starting to realize that not only in life but here on the little piece of the internet, that I need to just be myself and if someone doesn't like me for me then screw them. The people who are true friends will stick around with me and love me for who I am and not what I can do for them. I needed this little reality check for both aspects of my life because I just haven't been feeling myself lately and I really think it is due in part to trying to be someone I'm not. I am always trying to impress people by doing things I think they will like or being a certain way and I was starting to lose sight of who I really am. 

I'm sorry for such a boring post. Actually, no I'm not. This is who I am and how I'm feeling, which is why I started this post in the first place. If you're ever feeling like you are losing sight of yourself be it here on a blog or in real life or somewhere else in your life, don't worry, people will love you for you. I will be the first one to tell you that true friends will be there no matter what and the people who don't like you for being yourself don't matter. Or in the words of Dr. Seuss, "Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." 

A Puppy Photoshoot

First off, I know I suck at this whole posting thing. But like I said in my last post, I just haven't been feeling like myself lately and in turn that has caused me to just not feel like posting. It's a long story that I won't bore all of you with. However, what I will show you is the photoshoot I had with Luke Sunday.

The weather here has been so crappy for the past 23425432 months and Sunday it was finally nice enough to go outside and play. So we did. And he loved it. Actually, he just loved eating sticks. And trying to chew the bark off the tree. But I was able to bribe him with sticks to get him to sit still for .2 seconds to take a picture.

Luke and I cannot wait until we actually have a big yard for him to run and play in. But he absolutely loved playing outside. I am so ready for the weather to be nice again so we can play outside more often. And then we went inside and he decided to be a brat and pee in the house. So that's cool...

I did make him some awesome homemade treats that were like superrrrr difficult to make. I mean so difficult that I didn't know if I was going to be able to put a spoonful of yogurt and peanut butter in the ice trays and freeze them over night. However, he loved those super difficult to make treats and ate three in five minutes because I can't say no to him. I have a problem..

Sometimes..

Sometimes life gets in the way of things. I usually don't post anything that isn't upbeat on here, but I feel like I owe it to you guys to tell you why it took me a week to post anything again. For some reason, lately I haven't been feeling very "upbeat". I don't know what it is, and I feel like I can't make excuses for it. I just haven't felt like myself and because of that, I haven't felt like posting. Even some of the things I have posted in the last month have been "forced" in a way. 

I wish I knew the reason why I have been feeling out of it because then I could easily fix it. However, I can't pinpoint just one thing that I need to fix. The stress that I'm beginning to feel is overwhelming and I'm not dealing with it in the positive way I should be.

And I know whenever I think the stress I'm dealing with is too much to handle, there are so many other people out there who have it way worse than I do, which is one reason I was hesitant to post this. I don't want anyone thinking that I am taking every blessing I have for granted, or that I don't appreciate anything at all. But sometimes a person just needs to vent a little, and because lately I've felt like I don't really have someone that I can pour all of my feelings out to, I chose to come here.

So hopefully I can begin to feel like myself again soon. And I apologize for this post not being the usual positive post that goes in to this blog. But I made this blog to reflect who I actually am and it was, in a way, just a diary of sorts when I started out. And that's what I want it to continue to be. I want it to show my personality, ups and downs and all. 

I also don't want anyone to think I'm posting this on here for a pity party. That's not it at all. Like I said above, this blog is suppose to reflect who I am and how I feel. And right now this is how I feel.