I hate decisions
Any type of decision
Like what to get at a restaurant
Those decisions are so tricky
Seriously though, they should give you like 4 choices and that is it
Not menus bigger than my head with hundreds of choices on each page
So I am currently ending my junior year of college
Or what I see it as, three years of being lectured at
Which I hate
And in those three years I have changed my major once
I started out in Mass Communications
After two years I decided that wasn't for me
Then I did a year of elementary education
Now I have decided I don't think that's for me either
So after being in school for three years
I still don't know what I want to do
Which causes a problem
Because I hate being in school
But every time I change my mind I set myself farther back
So, do I continue down the road of elementary education?
Or do I find something else I want to do and see if that works for me
Why can't I just get told what to do?
So how am I suppose to make this huge life decision if I can't even decide what to eat
I have no idea what I'm going to do
I guess it's a good thing the semester is almost over
And three months might seem like a lot of time to figure it out
But I haven't even been able to figure it out in three years
I mean, maybe I can just stay in school for the rest of my life
I'll never have to pay back student loans
Or go to a big girl job
But then I'll never have money
Or a life
Because who wants to hang out with someone who's been in school for 40 years?
I also need to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks
Because right now I am trying to base what I do on what others say
And I know that's not how it should be
I should be making this decision only for myself
Not anyone else
But that's what I do, I like to please others before I make myself happy
Sometimes that's a good thing
But right now, not so much
So as of right now I am stuck having no idea what I want in life
And at 21 I feel as if I should know these things
I am so glad this semester is almost over
I hope you all had a wonderful weekend
Update on mine tomorrow
Since I know you love getting those updates
